This
morning, I wavered between AWOL and sabbatical
to name my thoughts. My recent absence
from musing was not deliberate but time that got away from me on one hand and
was tendered from me by the demands of life on the other. Monday morning would arrive, fill up like a
bucket dropped in a swimming pool, sink into afternoon and evening, then float
into Tuesday without any writing. Today,
I return from sabbatical with full fall
splendor and a calendar with a bit of space left on it.
1. (adjective) of or pertaining or appropriate to the Sabbath
5. (noun) any extended period of leave from one’s customary work, especially for rest, to acquire new skills or training, etc.
I took a one month period of leave from my customary writing to keep myself
sane. I do nurture myself with writing,
but I knew if I frantically coveted bits of time by forcing the issue I would
start acting mean, resentful, impatient.
That much I have learned about myself.
When I step too far away from life as a mother/homemaker I lose touch
with how important those roles are for me.
I
remain, as we all do, an individual who must care for my own self, too. But I know falling into unbalance (even toward
positive pursuits) will topple the blocks of me. One can become over attached to beneficial
activities, too! My life flows best with
essential foundation stones in place. Rest
and suitable food are paramount followed by getting five people where we are
supposed to be, prepared with what we need, in enough time to not feel frantic. In the last four weeks that’s all I could manage.
We
all have some version of a daily pie chart with 24 slices, each one hour. We experience the tug-of-war it can take to
keep that pie divided among life’s demands.
Let’s not trick ourselves into
thinking we can squeeze 26 hours out of our 24 hour days. Let’s also go easy on ourselves in terms of
how much we should realistically expect to get done. Rest is not a last thought, not time wasted. Rest is essential. In the biblical story of creation, God took time
to rest – hence the origin of the word Sabbatical. What more permission do we need?
Period of
Leave
appropriate as the seventh day
look at that which is
look at that which is
done.
find it good
one in holy acts making should
alive in that which is
alive in that which is
done.
know enough
actions always not essence stuff
see all that which is
see all that which is
done.
not over divide
not over divide
in truth of Devine
self-love reside
bow to that
which is
done.
man made last
Maker did not say, do more fast
accept that which is
accept that which is
done.
day sufficient
work time tic to appropriate end
today that which
is
done.
not tomorrow
let a next day not
long to borrow
discern that
which is
done.
offer rest
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